tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post1951024463539913818..comments2023-11-05T02:21:55.387-08:00Comments on this is not what i had planned: Signs revisited.k@laklyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05366772609212990882noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post-81687128856638213952008-11-14T20:26:00.000-08:002008-11-14T20:26:00.000-08:00sometimes when i have that kind of thinking (not t...sometimes when i have that kind of thinking (not that i'm pregnant or anything, just generally) i scold myself for thinking i'm "special" or "lucky"...good or bad, the universe doesn't give a shit about teaching us lessons! not that i'm trying to scold you or anything (well maybe a little tiny bit)...anyway, just keep riding these waves right onto shore, ok? and just keep typing it all out so it doesn't stay festering inside that head. i can't believe it's monday!!!!!!!charmedgirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12317107200577724625noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post-73196789863147738282008-11-13T18:54:00.000-08:002008-11-13T18:54:00.000-08:00I don't believe that the gods are conspiring again...I don't believe that the gods are conspiring against you (us). I think we just had bad luck. You deserve your baby because you will take care and cherish that baby. <BR/><BR/>A week out. Wow. That is so amazing. How about you let us be happy and excited for you while you fester and try to get through this week the best you can? How about that?<BR/><BR/>Thinking of you. Knowing in my heart things will be wonderful and right on Monday.....<BR/><BR/>ReeseReesehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05413272465193894312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post-48325913056628289832008-11-13T14:39:00.000-08:002008-11-13T14:39:00.000-08:00You DO deserve a healthy, happy baby. You didnt d...You DO deserve a healthy, happy baby. You didnt do anything wrong at all and what happened wasn't you being punished. Sweetie, if anyone deserves this happy ending, it's you. I know this will be okay. It just has to be.Michelehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17681333723382119281noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post-44631488439636464892008-11-13T13:05:00.000-08:002008-11-13T13:05:00.000-08:00Oh honey. God I too cannot imagine what its like ...Oh honey. God I too cannot imagine what its like to be "down that end" the thought of it scares me too. And everything you said about even if we get our babies out alive, will there be something wrong. God I think about all of that too. Trying not to go there often but my mind still takes me there. Its only days left and I am thinking of you often. So close sooo so close... xxxxAngehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04247910522550279292noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post-64196245062838174642008-11-13T10:47:00.000-08:002008-11-13T10:47:00.000-08:00*hugs*Deep breath, my friend. I don't have any oth...*hugs*<BR/><BR/>Deep breath, my friend. I don't have any other good advice unless I want to sound like my mother. Which would be me saying, "Drink some water!" "Go sit in the sunshine!"<BR/><BR/>Hang in there and call if you need someone to talk to. I'll be here, sitting on my butt.Aunt Beckyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12146687582842259611noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post-29347601708648453932008-11-13T09:30:00.000-08:002008-11-13T09:30:00.000-08:00I'm with C. - in fact I have that phrase on my wal...I'm with C. - in fact I have that phrase on my wall, "it is what it is" - and if today is a long black tunnel, then so be it.<BR/><BR/>For sure, when they hand you a healthy, screaming baby, that will be what it is as well - fxing amazing!!!Carahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08878937591945134056noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post-62427682466826660012008-11-13T09:22:00.000-08:002008-11-13T09:22:00.000-08:00Life after a loss is just freaky hard. And this la...Life after a loss is just freaky hard. And this last leg? shitty hard.<BR/>Holding my breath and crossing my fingers real hard for you. xoxojanishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14326099151319592743noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post-27056689700858156652008-11-13T08:54:00.000-08:002008-11-13T08:54:00.000-08:00It is what it is, K. It is what it is.I can't beli...It is what it is, K. It is what it is.<BR/><BR/>I can't believe we're only days away, K. (I use "we" like I had any part of this!) I can't believe that baby is almost here, that you've almost made it to that "end" we've aspired to for so long. I am so hopeful for a happy ending, K, so hopeful that you'll realize something good again. And I know that means shit in the whole scheme of things, but I had to say it all the same.<BR/><BR/>Big hugs to you, hon. I'm literally counting down the seconds until Monday. XO.c.https://www.blogger.com/profile/02933776400434137451noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post-90201878853297246712008-11-13T04:53:00.000-08:002008-11-13T04:53:00.000-08:00Um, Happy 100?Think of it this way: no matter WHA...Um, Happy 100?<BR/><BR/>Think of it this way: no matter WHAT happens, good, bad, indifferent (I'm not sure what indifferent is when having a baby, but play along) your life will change. Your life will be different from that point forward.<BR/><BR/>Lately I'm stripping things of their odds and saying "it will happen, or it won't." And although that's a bit morbid going down to 50/50, it's also strangely liberating. Here's to things happening. In a good way.Tashhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07376651134993450207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4335150632431753345.post-11416811189809504502008-11-13T03:50:00.000-08:002008-11-13T03:50:00.000-08:00I can't even imagine the head games I will be play...I can't even imagine the head games I will be playing with myself one week out. I guess it's normal? I agree wholeheartedly with your notion that we do not "deserve" anything good, especially when it comes to babies. It would be actually a laughable statement if it were coming from a non-deadbabymama. But as hard as I try to convince myself that I didn't deserve to have Hannah die, I don't think I ever succeed 100%. I am sorry you feel this way too. I am thinking about you all the time, waiting and willing Monday to come quickly. I pray, pray, pray that you are wrong and are handed a healthy screaming baby in a few days!! Hang in there, it's almost over.CLChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08030787972960755420noreply@blogger.com